04 Jan My story and my vision
When i was child, i always was interested in everything with comics, cartoons and animated movies from the 80’s and the early 90’s, and i was fascinated from the special effects in Hollywood blockbuster.
I also collected all of these trendy action toys, and when I played with them, there was never a shortage to come up with new stories.And i knew very early how all these things influence our life…
With action toys, grews up my creative part and it was never enough only to play with them, there also had to be a camera nearby to make the first stop motion animated movies.
All these things were always part of great pictures that I painted, that was one of my hobbies.And i really loved it playing video games, especially jump and run games like Super Mario, Donkey Kong and all these kind of games :-)It was a kind of magic, because for me it didn’t feel like just playing with something because i’m a child and that’s what all the children doing…
Nooo…Not for me!
For me, it feels like that i’m already working on something that i do in my future…Always i had in my thoughts that something big would happen from it one day in my life.And not to forget, i was always interesting in doing a lot of sports.
Dark Clouds came up…
But then surprisingly turned the tide… And unfortunately this dream vanished with time… because a little young boy was growing up, and nothing should be the way it was before…I was interested in connecting with new friends, another kind of friends like i had in past…These new friends had other interests, and since i was hanging out with them, i was no longer interested in toys…I wasn’t longer interested in creating movies, not in painting pictures, not in playing video games and not in make sports anymore…Yes of course my new friends also played video games, but not like the games that i played before… they liked to playing everything about War and violence.
And i never was interested in these kind of games!
For me it felt like it’s been cloudy from this time, like my life would be covered from dark clouds more and more.Peer pressure it was a part of everyday in my life from now!A guy i hang out always bothered me with my music system, he was of the opinion that my music system has not enough power and was only for trash…And then also my bicycle was shit, he said …
But i really can’t remember for what reason.I never told to him which things i have better than him, because i’m not a person who ever did that.I had to hear all of this from a guy who already had alcohol poisoning at the age of 12!
We will all be confronted with “peer pressure” someday in our life, especially when we grow up… And sometimes it is hard to resist, because we really wanna be a part of this “group”…And the very sad thing is, that the most of the people never change anymore…It’s over now, they never have their own opinion for the rest of their life!
These “new friends” really don’t know, and they never found out what was my passion before i start hanging out with them…Looking back, I should have already realized how good was my life before i was with these new friends.The dark clouds over my life, become darker and darker… with these guys i started smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol sometimes!One year earlier, i was always hanging up with good people, playing video games, doing well-braved my homework and make sports… incredible how that could change in only one year!?
From now the most important thing this time were, hanging out with my new friends, smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol with them, and also status symbols…My mother always was concerned about that, she never liked these new friends i hung out this time. And of course she didn’t liked it when i drink alcohol and smoke cigarettes.But we stupid little idiots won’t understand that…There was a huge age difference between all of us in the group of up to 6 years.The older guys already worked in 9 to 5 jobs and we’re the younger guys grew up, finished our school and started working also in 9 to 5 jobs, and we all lived only for the weekends…
I did something is sales, and i never was happy with that…but it wasn’t important, because we only lived for the weekend.I really don’t remember that we ever talked about any future plans.
At our parties there was basically a very primitive level…no trace of intellect,The weaker of us were always humiliated by the stronger guys and pushed around…And if the other guys didn’t like your hairstyle, you were forcibly held and your hair was shaved off!That was the effect of too much alcohol…!And what about girls?Just a few came around, who had nothing better to do.And some of the sneaky guys in the group weren’t afraid to take the girlfriend from his best friend…
The most of us are always worried about what other people think about us and then we want try to pleasure everyone…And that’s the base of “don’t have a own opinion”!The people around us always affecting us more or less.And the younger we are, as much harder it is to resist.This is how my vicious circle began.To be part of it, you try to be how other people want.If someone tells you: “Drink 1Liter Beer nonstop” and you say “no i don’t want”And the other guy again:”Drink or i hit your face”…!You get scared of him and then you drink….and what comes next?
What did you gain from it?You harm your health and get applause from someone you don’t like.And this person you don’t like, this guy you scared won’t bother you for the rest of the evening anymore….if you have luck….But you can be sure that he will bother you again and you will be scared again from him…This guy isn’t a friend and he never will be a friend.It’s not important what these people think about you.Avoid these people!
Of course not all of these guys were agressive, there were only a few.What always happened was, when there was only one from these agressive guys, i say the weakest of the agressive guys, it was always a littlebit quiet…but when comes around another agressive guy, one of the stronger agressive guys, then the weaker agressive guy he changed because he would have to show the stronger what he can do.That’s really sad…
After 5 years i hang out with these persons, it was enough for me, I don’t wanted anymore to endure violence from some of the aggressive guys in the group and i began to avoid these people.The truth was, that only 2-3 of these people tried to call me or ask what’s happen with me, because i doesn’t want to hang out anymore with them.And yes they spoke very bad things, they blasphemed about me.Lies were made up and facts misrepresented.I knew this was going to happen, but I thought it was a little more subtle.With these people, however, you should always count on the extreme, no matter in which topic.
After i was clear of bad people or with other words, clear of people they influenced my life in a negative way, I thought a lot and I asked myself a lot of questions.And the most important thing was:My mother invested a lot of time and money in me when i was a child, in a form of good education and all the things to give her son a good life.And then some guys appear that influence everything in a negative way, and in just one year destroying everything what my mother builded up since i was born.It was like, my mother did an investment, with the return of a son, who hates his job when he’s an adult and spending all of his money in everything that depends on making party , with those people they bring her son on this way.
Lost money, isn’t lost, because money we always can make again and again, but what never comes back, is time!After we are born, our parents are investing time and money in us, with the goal of that we become a good person when we grow up, to make a living with a job or something that we really love to do.If this comes true one day, then we can give back a lot of money to our parents to make them feeling happy and satisfied.And at last they can be sure, that they made an good investment in their life.All the money they invested in their children comes back now and all the time that our parents invested in us, was also used profitably.
“Did you ever asked yourself how other people see you?”
I don’t mean, what other people think about you!For example, if you’re a guy, who lives in a small town, go to work day by day, then the other people around you, accepting you.Because they can identify themselves with you.But if you’re a guy who do his 9 to 5 job, a guy who lives only for the weekend, a guy who’s totally drunk every friday and every saturday and a guy who’s unhappy on every sunday, because the monday is coming closer and closer…No, nobody see you as a hero, because the people see you as someone who’s maybe beating his wife and children…because he’s frustrated with his job, frustrated with his life…!90% of the people hate their job…That’s fact!And the most of these people don’t want to admit it, but it’s the truth.
When i look back on my life when i was with these friends in past, a lot of these guys was very aggressive and brutal before the age of 18…Then i aks my self, what’s happend in their childhood and made them so agressive when they drinking?You want this, that the people around you see you as someone who’s drinking and agressive, because you’re pissed off from your job?Other people also, i mean these people they don’t know you, because it’s your charisma.A Bad level of education is easy to recognitize!
You really want this?The only thing these people speak about you is: “Yes, he’s a nice guy ( when he’s not totally drunk )…but the only thing he really can do great is, he finds back the way home from work and knows the date when is the next party to freak out there….!”They never speak something about you like: “Wow, this is absolute extraordinary what this guy is doing!”
Yes, i hung up and drinking with these guys in past but i never was agressive in my life absolute never. But someday I would have been, because if you provoke someone long enough, one day the bomb will explode…But fortunately, that never happend, because i pulled the ripcord!
“You are the number one topic of conversation at every party, when you’re not there”!
Now i live for this Sentence ;-)But it wasn’t always like that…The first time it was always important for me what other people think about me.This time i worked the most of times from home and the other guys speak very bad about me…Things like, “This guy is lazy, he has no job…he’s sitting all the day at home and doesn’t work anything.”Really, when i think back i really must smile, because it’s too funny 🙂
But ok….I read many books and i attended seminars, to grow up my personality and i understood, how other people think and why they think so.After i picked some bad business partners i worked with and they brought me lots of problems, my friends from past spoke more bad about me, but i this time i wasn’t longer interested in that, for me it was always funny to hear that, because i never heard anything about these people….I mean that i heard nothing new!I swore to my self, that i never work with anybody, no business partners and no one who can ever cheat me again.But that wasn’t the right way…the right way was to change the business!
Back to the roots
And it really tooks a while to finding back to the roots, but it was magical!Yes, all the magic that’s gone a few years ago, come back and it comes back very powerful.I started with some 3D and stop motion clips i created for youtube and the progress became apparent very quickly.I made so many important contacts and i was hired from more and more people, from each country and different kinds of business to make graphics, intros and explainer videos for their companies.It was amazing, because i never worked for nothing.
Everything i created is an important part of my references, that i can use one day.
I played it safe and i built a few different income streams with 3D design and animation, logo design, webdesign, game development and coaching in this section.
And it’s just the beginning… ;-)With this personal website and blog i want to increase my level of awareness.
Now i always work with so many nice people in this nice and amazing business.And i work from every place i want, when ever i want.I speak 4 languages and travel a lot.I make sports for 5 days in the week.Now i’m in the best shape of my life and i’m getting better and better.There’s no space of violence in my life!I hate violence and i absolute not tolerate it!
I go straight and i don’t look back
The past isn’t important!It really doesn’t matter how many times we failed in past.Those people who always remember us in our past, are always live in the past, and they will never do any step forward in their life…And if we wanna do something big in our life, we need to fail many times, all the technical innovations, the smartphone, the tablet, the computer or notebook you use this moment to read my post, are based on many fails.The irony is, smartphones or tablets doesn’t exist a few years ago this time when i leaved back these people from my past…I never look back, and yes the people from “my past” are always speaking bad.It’s just too funny what i always hear what these people speak.When i visit my family, the people speak again: ” This guy is back again with his family, because he has no job, he’s lazy he doesn’t work anything 🙂
A few years ago and always the same words they speak.It never changed anything in the mindset from these guys.Not a bit wiser…!I can visit my family when ever i want and as long i want, and thats something these guys never know how it is to work from every place in the world.They know holidays from 1 or maximum 2 weeks…Honestly i just need 1 or 2 weeks time to cure my jet lag when i’m traveling 🙂
And i’m so happy that these people speak about me .-) Unfortunately, i have nothing to speak about this guys, because i never hear anything…!
Do what you love in your life, and you never work, because you have fun all the day.Build something big, something that the world will always remember in your name.Avoid the wrong persons and stay with the good people who really love you and never want something bad happens with you.If you always believe to do something big in your life, and if you never stop working hard on it, it will happens one day.
And yes, the people with 9 to 5 jobs, who live their life only from one till the next party, never will understand you.
They will laugh you out when you dream big.And the truth, the reason why they do that is, they don’t trust them self to do something big in their life.
It’s like a mirror.The most of people can’t admit mistakes, and it’s the same thing when they don’t trust their self to do something big.It’s easier to laugh out other people with big goals.
Let the people speak and never look back because of bad experiences in past.Life is short, don’t waste your time with justifications from the past and you have to do something big in your life, or you wanna always look at other people with a cool lifestyle and hate these people, because you hate yourself!Stop wasting your time, because time never comes back.
And this was my story, how i was lost in life and how i get back my passion.
What will you expect from my blog here in the future?
I will speak about interesting projects im working on in the section of 3D art and game development.And also i planned to make reviews about new applications in the stores, entertainment and technical innovations.
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